Saturday, August 27, 2005
Alright, let me do some blogging for the day since i am waiting for my project attachment to be attached. Today went for volleyball training at Pasir Ris. Thinking of whetehr to go at first since i was seriously lack of sleep. But decide to go after hearing that val fen liah and rrina going. but ultimately liah never turn up. never mind. Played a few matched with the current B division (girls and guys) lost 2 won 1. guess is not bad after so long never play ball le. Did lots of spiking and feel real good cos realy vent alot of the stress and anger and unahppiness i have been facing recently. And so i say, spiking do wonders. At least for me. Jiex bought a cretivre MP3 player. When will it be my turn to buy? i think i will get it after retail challenge money comes in. Yea!!
Back aching and hands aching in fact everywhere is aching. Goodness. Tomorrow gotta go for project.. PTH on a sunday.. How nice.. -_-
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Tuesday, August 23, 2005
oh man.. how bad can it like be la? My computer got virus then i cannot do my powerpoint slides. Like super guilty cause have to let my group mates do it again la. Argh.... anyway... i think i falling sick le.. i eat everything no taste de.. and feeling very weak and cold... so much for working hard till after exams.. oh yea.. something freaky happen too.. Jonathan send me this blank message and i reply him ask him why he send me these invisible ink message. Then he send me another three blank message and i got irritated and ask him what he wants.. he never reply. So afterwards when i went home and got onlien i ask him liek whats his problem la.. Message me then don't want talk then he say never message me nor receieve my message la.. freaky man.. Jonathan i swear that i did not tell a lie.. you really send me blank messages and i really did replied you. Who knows what happen.
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Friday, August 19, 2005
Do you all sometimes feel that you have something on your mind that you want to say yet you don't know how to put into words? Thats what i am actually facing now. I don't know whats wrong but i feel that i am being despise on that kind of feeling. Despite having so much pressure put onto me, i try to be happy infront of everybody as long as i have energy. I am not trying to put up a false front. Its just that i want everyone to be happy. So simple. BUt why can't i do it? I think i have put in my best and since i don't seem to be able to please anyone, forget it. I GIVE UP.
Yesterday had retail challenge and stand for like 13 hours non stop. Sales was slow and only made 100 plus plus dollars. Everything is bad. Don't want to think about it anymore. Today had school then rush finish UCCD project go home feeling lethargic. Went to sleep then out to dine with Ying mao mao.. miss her so much. Then now here i am. What else can i say?
bye
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
Oh... Finally come and blog. Past few days were very hectic. Alot of projects to complete, so many things to do. Often feel like giving up but who don't? so must perservere on. For my future and for the future of my group members.
Today had this retail challenge meeting and over 50% of our proposal was rejected. Feel a little demoralised and don't have the motivation to carry on. I know the experience i get is alot. But this is just not the right time with so much projects. Especially when i spend the whole night at von house to do project and went for the retail thing almost after. Went home only manage to get 2 hours sleep befor ei was woken up for dinner.
Aiya.. really no mood to carry on.. bye
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
Hmmm... don't know what to say also.Recently keep feeling like blogging but after awhile close the window cause lost interest. Feeling like so sick la. Having a bad week and predicted the same case for the week ahead. Recently like don't feel like talking in school. Stayng in school makes me feel untterly sick. And i think i am having this stressful temper. Why is it called a stressful temper? because when i feel stressed that typical impatient and do something wrong and you die mood has come again. Seriously been trying to control it by just shutting up and let people do the decision. When i do not agree with some minor things i just keep quiet but if it becomes something that is way out i will give direct comments. For those who i actually commented too directly sorry yea? I am still trying to control my temper. Think i am going to buy those crappy CDs that says that it would help you relax and relieve stress. Since i have no choice i shall make the last resort when i am not so broke.
Alright so yesterday went home immediately after school end and i mean immediately. After school don't want to wait then just immediately go home by taking the train Then fell asleep in the train. Reached Simei and saw Xinyun but being so tired i just walk away from her so as not to have to pick up some unwanted conversation. Made my way around Eastpoint while waiting for my Dad to pick me up from simei. I know its just a 15 min walk but i am tired ok? Then went home and had my lunch which i even finish half of it cause the same word.. I am tired. Then went to sleep until the evening. Woke up feeling dizzy and realise that its the time of the month which explains all these moodiness tiredness and dizziness crap. So much for being a woman. I rather serve NS then have to go through this crap EVERY MONTH.. at least going to NS i just suffer for that 3 years and get done with it not forgetting an increase in pay after the whole service is over. This is my point of view and i believe everyone have their own thinking. So you have the right to ignore or remain silent or voice out.
So today woke up to make my way to Bedok Mrt station where we waited for Mila to fetch us to centrepoint to check out our store for retail challenge. Mila is nice to treat us with hot chocolate chips drinks and pizza. Not forgetting the ride to and fro home. Really appreciate it. I finally realised that i really have the talents to be creative. Mila complimented me!! Cause fo the posted i did.. Wait till you guys see it. And your eyeballs will fall out. Wait till i get a copy kz?
Okie.. This is a long entry... shall go le.. bbye..
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Alright.. Going to do some blogging before i go get my mother at the changi airport. Firstly feel kind of wierd recently. I think the horoscope did make me feel a bit of wierd. I mean sometimes what it says is so true that it scared me and this week i feel like what it say is quite true again. Maybe is just the psychological part of me. But i am not feeling too good actually.. Feeling that i just want to be alone for a moment.
Recently had so many things that are like happening and all are in a twinkling of an eye. So fast. I practically spend all my time in my studies and projects and the coming retail challenge. For lecture i just keep listening and taking notes but results were not as expected though expected. Projects i hope to be able to do well ( like noone wants, silly me) and retail challenge i really want to win alright. BUt sometimes i just wish that we never get in. Like now all i wish is for a break but my saturday used up for retail challenge.
Keep thinking of those unhappy things. Don't really know whats the problem with me. I really want to forget somethings but it just don't seem to be able to leave my mind. I want to scream out loud i want to be happy.. I miss my mom and am so glad she is coming home. Cause she always can make me feel happier for god knows what reason.
Why is it that everytime something in my life is resolve then another problem comes. I feel that i have no energy to speak up anymore that sometimes i have a bit of thinking that i will usually voice up i just keep to myself. When people ask i will just say i am tired. Yeah i really am. I think i still like life during secondary school where i have a small sweet cozy circle of friends and that my life revolves around volleyball and my animal+fruit family. Fat cat i really miss you alright. Since last year my exam never get to see you le. Been trying to ask you out but always nto i not free then you not free.
Tell you guys a secret.....
PRSSVBALL ROCKS YEA?
GET IT?
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