Saturday, October 08, 2005
sometimes i do really wonder whether there is something called true love.. and does love really fades... the time is 12.19am and my parents are in midst of a quarrel... i don't understand whats the point of them quarreling every single day.. what my mom and dad gets out of these quarrels? satisfaction that they manage to outwit one another or something? I believe i mention before i simply detest smoke from cigarettes.. my dad because he wanted to piss my mother off smoked in their air conditioned room stinking the whole house... why did he do something so drastic? because my mother locked the door refusing him entrance to his own room.. i really feel my mother deserve it... i know she hates cigarettes too.. she just refuse to unlock the door even when my dad use a hammer to hammer the door.. what the hell right.. i really feel it would be good if they divorce... at least it would not be so bad.. i really think my mother sometimes do have mental disorders just that she did not realise... Went to Kallang airport hawker centre to eat with them and they were quarreling and my mum was shouting like she is at home,... i feel so disgusted... then when at my sister's school waiting for her lesson to end, the quarrel started again... and she was shouting and shouting like i dunno how to describe... everyone was looking our way and i had to bury my face in the thick 'female' magazine.. she needs a doctor i feel..
Well... i feel that i seem to be gonna contract some wierd disease.. Feeling weak all over no matter whether i sleep or not.. just walking a few steps cause my right body below my chest to hurt alot.... and yahx.. getting this horrible headache now.. god bless me... hope my family will be fine...All the best for my sister'sss exam (3 s because i have 3 sisters) my parents to work out fine... my result to rock( dream on) and my family to be a happy family? whateva.. not pinning much hope on it... Goddess of Mercy... please help..
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