Friday, March 24, 2006
hmmm.. whats with relationship nowadays? Find it real wierd especially recently...like she should get a bf, she and him broke off, he like her, she misses him etc etc etcz? especially the she should get a bf part.... Can't people just survive without love? I mean love as in relationship love... Heard so many break ups recently it kind of getting on my nerves.... Really feel that strong mutual understanding got to exist if one wants to be with another... When i hear too much of such things, i realise how lucky i am to be like single? hahax..Many people are telling me how much i am missing out without a bf... But if you got urself a jerk as a bf you would be counting ur blessings that you eventually broke up with him isn't it?
Many times i hear people wanting to do silly things for the other party.... But what is the point when you know that nothing would work out in the end? Does doing such silly things helps you feel better or get the person back? no of course not... So why bother hurting yourself the way you are doing so now? here i am reprimanding people about how silly it is... But maybe just one day i will find myself in their shoes.... So lets just cross our fingers and pray for those who needs it....
Oh well... Just finish slacking for the whole day.... And finish washing my sister's fish tank.... thinking of whether to go for the CADC camp as MIU... I am afraid that history will repeat itself..though the pain is no longer there, but the shadow is... I can just imagine everyone staring at me and blaming me for everything that have happen... One started scolding, then the other then the other just like it happened yesterday... I am really very scared it will happen again.. I know i have promised to go and help out... But i am afraid of going back to the same place where my nightmare once exist.... Please God... Let me feel strong enough to go through the camp smoothly and not let history repeats itself... Because i doubt i can deal with another such situation...
But one thing for sure... It really did hurt badly once...
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