Magical Essence

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

Its been like 2 days down the week and I have finish spending my allowance... And you guys know what that means? It means Less food and More Savings... But again who can you we blame ritex? I mean its the Great Singapore Sales.. If I don't spend it like now when do i spend it ritex?

On Monday went to Galilee & Friends to eat with Von, Jane and Peggy... Today went to shop with kiku and mango... Bought a nice top.. And had meal at V8 Cafe..... Oh no Oh no... BUT!!!! I am not regreting because I love my top.. muahahahx

Oh and people if you all are hoping to date me out with hope that I will spend some money, try next week.. hahax... Or you will see me going like.. Oh.. its nice but I have no money.. hahax... Tomorrow shall drag mummy out to buy the U.R.S heels I saw.... I love my mother.. muahahahx...

Ok la... I got alot alot to say... But if I don't finish my work, I will be boo my teacher.. LOL.... OK.. BBYEEEE

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Saturday, May 27, 2006

ohhh... my family members all seems so prepared to go overseas... younger sis is at Tioman now... My elder sister will be going to Shanghai for attachment next week and I am going to US in August... This sounds exciting doesn't it? hahax... Only my poor third sister got to work hard for her O levels... TLE would be my last paper for the semester... Hope I do score though chances ain't too high...

Yesterday I went for driving lessons and had a stomachache so got my instructor to stop for me to do my business.. God knows why he insisted on going to Esso Mobile... He claims its safer cause they locked their toilet... But I could not care less because I could hardly control anymore. Who cares about having their arse seen at the point of time hur??/ But thats not my point.. After that we drove past Geylang... It was... Scary.. hahax... I mean I haven seen Geylang at night and never expected to see so many males wandering aimlessly... All kinds of guys with a common topic... Sex... hahax... BUt I hardly see any girls and I told my instructor that.. HE replied saying that the day before 100 over prostitues were caught.. Then he show me the newspaper and say that they are hot... But I have to admit that my car was abit unsteady when I was at Geylang... First reason was because many were jaywalking and the road was very crowded with cars and pedestrain.. Next reason was... I AM CURIOUS!!! hahax...

Anyway skipping that topic... Today went out with Susi to get some items for my entrepreneurship and Susi to get some beads for herself... Was quite fun choosing things.. hahax... But there was just too little time... Went home to sleep afterwhich but like never sleep for long.. Was very cold....

Oh, screw all the cockcroaches in the world... Was walking home when this cockcroach crawl over my leg... And i could feel its little foot feeling on my leg after that... Yuck!!!!!

Ok.... Lack of topic already... bbyeee

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Friday, May 26, 2006

PooF!!!! Finally the worse is over.... After The many CAsss projects..... Though have another paper coming up this Monday.... Like is still fine... (thats to assure my ah ma) I can cope.. do not worry...

Yesterday make my way around Bugis alone.. walking from bugis to suntec to esplanade etc.... Walk for two full hours with textbooks in my bag... So I shall show you people the miserably ugly photos I submitted....

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Yesterday had IAF CA... Kinda disappointing cause I think there goes my full marks.. I mean the paper should be able to get full marks and I am sure many would..But i am still hoping for an A... Went to had dinner at Billy Bombers with von mindy and peggy... Has lots of fun taking pictures, eating and talking crap... I think it is just pure chit chatting that makes everything so perfect....

After which we go pass something to Peggy's friend who invited ask for a drink at a bar.. The ambience was great and high class.. We seem so out of place but the place makes one feel so at ease... A great place to unwhine...

Today like keep sleeping like that lei.. hahax... Tuang says I look the most shag of all four of us.. adding on to my messy hair.. Oh well... my creativity suck,... eeyucks.. off to study le.. bbye

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Monday, May 22, 2006

Toda one of my client call me to say that her fiancee is suspecting her and he is not ready to let her know the surprise yet... The agreed to it and when his fiancee really called me I feel troubled.

She tested me out to ask me whether i show samples. then after which she told me that she feels that her fiancee is cheating on her. And she sounds generally very upset. Then I say with regards to her fiancee, I did meet him to show him the sample because I have another client's item on hand. I don't know if she see through me because she is a lawyer.

She told me that she feels not right to have me interfere into her fiancee's problem but she feels the need to find out the truth. the problem lies here. She is a female... I am a female too... What if the fiancee is just using me as an excuse to cheat on her? Am i doing the right thing? But if I tell her the truth, it might spoil the surprise that her fiancee might have for her.

Both parties asked me not to tell the other party they called to me.. I personally feel that they are not fit to get married just yet because the basic trust between them does not exist. Both are highly educated people. By the way they typed the email in perfect/ standard english and the way they speak already says it all. Not forgetting the way they test me out. For all I know both of them are lawyers....

I will try not to interfere into the problem.... And study my IAF... And i promise to ork hard for my English.. because I feel inferior talking to them in singlish.. Hello at least I am a Poly students that is soon to get a diploma... WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Saturday, May 20, 2006

These few days very busy.. gotta study for the coming up tests like CEM, IAF and SM... Had sort of finish reading through SM but going throught the textbook now.. For CEM... must really Gambateh le... Like no time to finish studying already lei... IAF even worse... haven even started studying.... so god bless me.....

Heard from my friend that I am spending too much time on my entreprenaurship.. I think its good to able to sell things online yet earn wat... Help me in better management... hahax..Bullshit.. I just want to earn as much as possible.. Then afterwhich spend the money on buying stuff for the US trip... Hopefully then I can get myself a neat camera.... hahax...

Maybe later going to the supplier to get some stuff......lalalalx..

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Thursday, May 18, 2006

I am sick of everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am sick of just doing nothing everyday except using the net... I am pissed with myself for being so naive.... I am angry with myself for not studying when next week there is 3 freaking test.. I am disappointed in myself for neglecting my work... Aliah, Huifen!!!!!!!! SOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lets go out and study on saturday or sunday or both ok? I really need to study... And it have to be somewhere away from the freaking computer...

I kept promising myself that I will change tomorrow... I will stand up and carry on tml.... But when tomorrow comes.. I tell myself there is always tomorrow.. It has been carrying on for 2 weeks.. To add on, my back aches like shit......

Today, I feel quite alright (at least before I went home)... Morning wore a shorts that has once become too tight for me and which i stop wearing for sometime.. Realise it fits quite well... Then was going to school for a short time only... Though abit waste time but still ok.. Then went to get the 4 earring stands..... while chewing on large friess... Then met the guy who bought the earring stand.. No change so he ask me keep the change.. of 1 dollars.. muahahahx... But i very happy le wor.....

Then came home and sleep.... Not exactly sleep whole afternoon la.. Went to sleep at 4... Was watching some shows online......

Woman are stupid creatures... Most anyway... But I am the stupidest stupidesttttt.....

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

Hmmm.. today marks the end of my first project... Not too fantastic.. BUt overall still alright...

I have been thinking alot.. I think we should stop communicating for some time... I mean we just can't talk like before can we? I know you still care for me but don't you think we like super ke qi to one another.. Then sumore have to find topics to talk... Although I am glad to be able to talk to you, but part of me don't want to have anything to do with you.... Argh.. Why am I sitting here now? I keep waiting and waiting.. What am I suppose to be waiting for I also don't know.. All I know is that its spoiling my mood totally...Maybe I should try and do some things that I don't always do.. Something drastic... I will think about that... Have lots of things to say.. But don't know what to say... Only to say.. Qing Ni Bu Yao Dui Wo Tai Hao..

These few days don't know why keep on dio gastric pain... Also don't feel like eating much... When had gastric today, I went to buy chocolate.. Yes chocolate!! Something which i haven been eating for super long.. I popped in like 4 into my mouth.. It felt super uber duper GOOD!!! This is what I call Chocolate Therapy... yeapx thats it....

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Monday, May 15, 2006

Tomorrow would be my first project presentation of the semester... Hope I will be able to perform well for it... Just feel that i did not put in enought effort for it. Seeing Jessica so worried while I feel nothing makes me feel bad....

Yesterday driving lesson proved to be fruitful since I only stall one and was not really my fault... Gives me a sense of satisfaction... Yesterday was Mother's Day... Did not celebrate... My family has some family problems.. But did bought my mother a bouquet of flowers that was specially picked by me... Was looking for Mudan flower which is my mother's favourite but could not find it.. Anyway had some photos taken of the flowers... These are tulips.. Never knew that tulips are so beautiful.. My favourite flowers for the time being would be Lily and Tulips... *grinx*

I think I am being too paranoid.. Sister keeps telling me that everything is fine and don't think too much and says she does not know about it. But somehow I don't know whether to trust or not. Sis says that if i continues being like that, I will give myself away.... I told her I am trying hard to stay cool....

Anyway yesterday went onto friendster again but the Alvin guy ask to make friends again... Despite me not liking to make friends from friendster, I ask him to add me on MSN.. God knows what is going through my brain.. I think because of that event my perception has changed.. But I am still not too enthusiastic to strike a conversation with him and also not too keen about having to come up with a conversation.. Well.. why do I have to bother.. He will think about what to tell me... I cannot be bothered.. hahax...

I feel like listening to Sharon Au's Shu Guang all of a sudden.. I know I have the song.. but don't know where I put the CD

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

To all girls out there, its always fantastic to have a girls night out where everyone of you pours out all ur problems, crap, photo taking session, sleep together.... It really helps to brighten up ur day the following day though you are feeling sleepy... For me its also this way... I am feeling relieve... As in like feeling happy in one way to have people sharing my problems with me and knowing I am not alone... And I have found the way to free myself from my current situation already thanks to fen.. I will post the photo up to the computer when i borrow my phone from daddy.. At the moment.. all of you will have to make do with words.. hahax....

Fen-- My dearest neighbour... Really good to have you around.. Though did nto know when we started to be this close... Still remember the days where we will meet up to go to the bus stop together to head for school and make our way back after training... Those days were uber fun becos we are always crapping... Life don't seem as fun without u around at least once a day.. hahax..

Aliah-- A sweetie who never fails to lighten up my day.. Even when she herself is upset... I like to see you smile and be happy again.. So let bygones be bygones alright? no point still sitting on a sinking ship when you know you will drown if you continue to be in it... right? Brave up and move on... your sisters around you will be there for you 24/7 yea?

Thanks fen for the belated bday card though it is belated... Love ya guys lots... remember we have to go to the zoo yea? LOL

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Friday, May 12, 2006

Recently do what also not smooth.. Just take for instance today... Merely going out for shopping already so many obstacles... Oh well... Whateva...

Went for driving lessons at the circuit today.. Was so cool la.. The circuit everything also have.. but i think i did quite badly.. Maybe because it is too dark for me to gauge at all... very hard to park and all....

Then after circuit was like just driving around Ubi when we pass by this street where there is alot alot of bangladesh... Some were just sitting in big groups chatting.... Some by the roadside... Some crossing the streets like they owned the road..Then my driving instructor ask me whether i dare to walk heer alone at night not.. I say I am in the car just driving by I already so scared already don't say walking by..... He replied me saying that yahx.. very dangerous.. even if kena rape also dunno how to identify the person.. They all look the same....

Which i agree.. they really do look all the same... I think that stronger police security should be implemented especially during such public holidays....

My gastric pain is like getting worse by day la... I hope it gets better.... Or i will have to take medicine already... I think i made a wise decision by drinking milk this morning.. or i might be crying in pain now....

Time does fly pass fast... Everything seems to be like a dream, which never happened before..

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

Woke up early because my sister slam the door woking me up.... Yesterday slept quite late cause of some talk with a friend... And I really think I made a stupid mistake... NOw what is going to happen I really don't know. Maybe it is better this way... Forgetting will be easier... Looking at the bright side... " Hey I will be going to US which is like a freaking 5 months". Hopes everything will be fine then.....

There started with no fate because there wasn't anything to start off with... But thank you for letting me know I am one of the friends you can never do without...

Remember...

Your Promise...

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Tuesday, May 09, 2006

My computer become sot already... this webby cannot go in.. that webby cannot go in.. until i jitao fedup le la.. but i keep trying to come here because i feel like blogging... Today treated myself to jap food with kiku and quant though i am quite broke... had this tom yum ramen thingy with chicken cutlet... not bad.. quite yummy..... Tried shoes at URS and am happy with my finding.. wooooohoooooo... Exams are coming le wor.... so must work hard.... I think i starting to get sianx dao le.. so dun wan blog le.. bbye

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Monday, May 08, 2006

Oh man... I think I am pms-ing... Its so irritating. I think so is mummy and my jiex.... Yesterday Wendy call me to ask me for the citation while I was soak in aircon doing homework... Then I started to feel irritated because it means I have to leave the aircon to send it to her... So I was mean very mean to her when i talk to her.. Forgive me yea? Then don't know why i became very angry so when I went back to the room I started to rantle and sui sui nian to my sister and they asked me to shuddup.... eeeyucks!!!!

Its not nice to have so many women in my house because it means everyone of us,(5 of us) will have pms once a month which adds up to going through 5 times a week.... Oh man..... This is crazy... Project is about to be done.... Thats lucky..... But 4 more to go....

Anyway sold another 3 earring stand and earn 35 bucks... which means i have save a total of 175... not bad le wor.. hahax... bbyeee

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Saturday, May 06, 2006

Alright.... The General Elections results are on their way out.... Just quite curious of who will be my districts election since Workers Party since to have alot of supporters at East Coast... I do feel that Worker's party ideas are not too bad.... I hope they do not win though, because i feel its abit of big talk... Anyway was reading my Jonathan's blog and it really amuses me of what he thinks and requires from a party before he would vote for them...I seriously hope no party will fulfill all of his requirements because if they do, I will just protest outright and I am sure many would too....
Gender equality .. Generally I feel that females are given the ability to give birth while males are given the strength.. So I feel that NS should still be fulfilled by the guys... lalalalax... But maybe more pressure should be put by the government, for females to give birth...
Censorship of sexual movies is important!!! I mean can you imagine those in primary schools already knowing what all sex is about and carrying out sex like its a norm? *horror* Can you then imagine a primary school kid engaging in a conversation with their relatives with regards to more intimidate sexual issues?
Speak Mandarin Campaign should still continued to be held... The younger generations are all becoming "Ang Moh Kang Tang". (English-Speaking...) How can a Chinese not know how to speak mandarin? what a disgrace... Moreover, China is the upcoming industry...

My conclusion... (this entry is just my opinion, nothing offensive Jonathan) :
I think you would be better off elsewhere other then Singapore, Jonathan.. hahax...

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Friday, May 05, 2006

GBE project finally going to complete. Left with only the finishing touches.....Now have to start worrying about my photography project.. Theme is Life is Great... Anyone any suggestions?

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Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Staying awake is starting to be a very hard thing to do. Don't seem to be able to get enough sleep when i seriously needs it. The body sets and alarm which wake me up at 7 or latest 9 when i sleep at 1... Goodness sake.... Today was so overwhelm by exhaustion.... I mean today lessons were not that xiong but reaching home and after enjoying my meal... sat down to watch tv and fell asleep only waking at 8... can't even manage to stay asleep for long... BUt my whole body is protesting now... I really wanna sleep since tomorrow is a 8 o clock lesson. Maybe it is some hormonal change... Just hope to be able to stay home and hide under my bedsheet and just sulk... yes... SULK!!! God knows why?

I hope this week end fast because we have to do GBE project... I am hating every single moment of it... Tomorrow there is project meetup and thursday too... sound so pathetic.. ok.. i shall stop complaining.. byeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

- feel the magical essence...# ;