Magical Essence

Friday, June 30, 2006

Ok previous post abit sadist but felt abit better after i went to look at the prssvball album and to my horror found some disgusting photo of noone but myself.. Its really digusting

First photo ain't too bad.. Just a photo of me say 3 years ago.. Not much difference huh.. haha... Many were missing.. But that was the last gathering I attended.

This photo I look like a monkey luh.. Don't know who took one.. Definately it shows that I am not the main character. But look!!! I am very serious when I play ball luh!!! haha..

Woots!!! Never had the impression of me playing with coach and those old boys.. But well.. For those who never seen me in volleyball outfit.. I am the blue wan in the middle.. Yes I am in long socks and knee pad.. Fully geared.. Scared pain ma.. haha

The last photo is so funny luh.. Look at Wenda.. No 10.. Very Relax ar.. hahax.. Fully enjoying himself.. Look at Desmond also.. With a ball clasped between his feet.. He look so funny.. Think he's gonna die when he see this pic..

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I think today is one of the worse days when I am feeling exceptionally emotional.. Its a miracle I can wait till the end of the day before all my emotions give way.

Why do you choose to believe her and not me? I really missed the old times.. I don't want things to be the way it is.. Fen says let nature takes its course. But where will nature bring us to? I fear that it is bringing us to a dead end. I know things have changed. People changes. But I really don't want to leave the Comfort Zone of the past. We are sisters afterall.. Why can't we sit down nicely and have a good chat.

I was harsh in the conversation because I was angry. I did not mean it the way you interprete it. But all has ended hasn't it? I bet you have the last laugh.. Because inside me, I'm hurting...

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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

GEraldine, Singapore's fortune teller to be did palm reading for me.. Hahax..So for those who are not aware, girls read their right palm while for guys it will be the left. Started with Geraldine saying I would have a happy marriage and we would be close together. However at the end of both lines there was split end which means that we would most likely separate. Maybe divorce or maybe death. Then I will have 2 spouses. First one which I would marry but whatever happens to the second spouse.. hmm hmmm.. Then my career line also splits.. Which means I will change career, which tallies.. For those who are close with me will know that when I have earn enought I would like to go to Hawaii to sell Ice cream by the beach.. Which means I have chance of accomplishing my dreams.. HoHO...Then erm.. My life line also split.. So might have problem.. But Choy.. and guess what.. I will get married early.. Like 28 which is around the age I have in mind.. Lastly, I think too much.. haha

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Saturday, June 24, 2006

Am so very happy with my returns for two days of shopping!!! Bought 2 denim skirts, 1 not very short but short pants and FBT shorts..hohoho... Why did I spend so much money? Because I feel that if I don't spend, I have totally let myself down since I have been working on projects and camp for the whole 3 week break.. So much for a break!!! So the fun has ended and its time I work on serious things such as my driving lessons and projects and focusing on IAF coming CA!!! I will try my best!!! Hope its still within my control. AIming to complete GBE project by today So GAMBATEH!!!!

Driving Lesson was horrible.. I knocked doen many pillars and all.. I think I am soon to suffer from a nervous breakdown. I thought I saw a lady sitting on a car on the way back but saw nothing.. I thought I saw a small boy squatting infront of the lamp post but again there was noone.Think I too tired le...

Am doing facial and these are the photos my sister took of me...LOL .. NOt for weakhearted people...!!!

Applying of First Layer!!!

Applying of Second Layer!!!

Finally DONE!!!

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Friday, June 23, 2006

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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

Ahhhh, thinking whether to even continue writing blog entries. Feeling abit tired already.. Really Tired... Oh nvm... Just let it be....

Just finish watching Attack no 1.. Sorry coach I just cannot stand waiting.. So went all the way to Woodlands to get it from Shi Rui... Thanks nian qin de.. Wo hai shi ai si ni le.. hahax... But anyway, the show brought back alot alot of memories... And I did a very shameful thing.. I cried... When they played the finals for the inter school compeitition. Think in Singapore it would be nationals ba... It remind me of the Dunman High match.. Seems like I can feel the pain when they lose the compeitition. It like so real so painful lo... The past hardwork and effort put in.. We did tried our best too... The continuous spiking then the crying part.. Everything was just to unbearable...

Then their training process... Another tight feeling.. The san ren fang.. The continuous spiking to train our xia shou by melvin and also the continuous throwing of ball by coach to train our spiking... The physical training every saturday... Sit up, push up, jumping jacks.. Seems so incredible. For all I know all vballers are trained that way but I really feel the training is so like ours.. Why do we have to climb 11 storeys then when they don't?? Not fair luh!!!

AHhhhhhhh!!!! Missing Vball so so badly... Its not just the playing of vball that is missed. The training process, the group punishment and all.. Its what groom us as a real volleyball player. Because we share the same goal.. Winning...

Enough of this.. I feel that there is a player who reminds me of Yeeling the cchs libero.. haha.. and it is.....Tah DAh!!!!

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Saturday, June 17, 2006

Something stupid just happened. I really cannot believe it!!! I dreamt that my friend called me to tell me that she is very upset abt something in articular. So when i woke up I sms my friend and told her that. Then when I told my other friend about it, my other firend say that it sounds familiar. And the cannot believe it part is it really did happened. Because I went to camp and did nto slp durign the last night, I was totally worn out. So when the girl called me I really did answered. It was unbelievable!!!! I cannot believe this happened.

Anyway, now I know how evil a person's mouth is. Just like poison. So never even trust your best friend to keep your secrets. Your revealing of the secret has disappointed someone. You ought to be ashame of yourself.

Now to think, I have a very big secret with him. I am afraid he will reveal it. If you know who you are and is reading this entry, would you pls sms me to reassure me that you did not reveal it especially to her? But if you have already told someone, then pls also let me know so that I can be mentally prepared. To him too, your secret is safe with me. Not a single soul knows about it. *grins*

So it means that Zoo outing only left with 4 people. hey girls, I have no mood to go to the zoo le. The feeling has changed. Going there won't makeme happy because we had a pact to go there together. Maybe one day we will all go together... Just maybe....

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Friday, June 16, 2006

First and foremost, would start with Boxer. My friend's dog Boxer went missing and was last seen at Tampines St 33, ard 9.30-10pm. It was last seen to be with a chinese couple. Oh yahx, Boxer is a white westie, ard 2 yrs old. Please help to look out for the dig k? especially those staying at Tampines. Attached below is the photo of Boxer.

To continue, I went to CADC Sub Com CAmp for the past few days being a cook. Lots of chopping and cooking but I guess its real fun because its like we have a whole room to our own with fully equipped facilities like the aircon and television. Food wasn't enough most of the time but we happen to be able to survive. Many different food invention like the buffet night's popiah which was swipe clean.. wooohoooo.... Only slept like 1 hour before heading for project. God bless me.. Am so very tired.

Da jie has gone oversea for so long le. Hope her home-sickness has become better.

I am growing to accept things as it is. I have grown stronger. No longer do I feel the pain though I doubt we will be as close as we once were.......

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

We were all once a group of happy sisters. A big family. Laughter filled our lifes. Love for each other was like an overflowing well. We seem to not be able to get enough of each other. But one day, this well of love dried up. All had our separate lives. The only string that bound us together broke. The one that all of us struggled to hold onto just gave way.

This was not the first time it occured. The well which once almost did dried up once did eventually filled itself half full. But now, the emptiness can be strongly felt. Hatred has substituted Love. Sadness had substituted Happiness. Bitterness substituted Sweetness.

We once sat together for coffee. The differences was so distinct. Yet we pretend to be oblivious to the problem assuming that everything would be fine. Can I say that we should have seen it coming? I really don't know.

That one incident had prove to be a disaster. Maybe on that fateful day if we haven met, things might not turn up the way it is. You don't understand don't you? Why we are so unhappy... All I can say would be, We Care....

Why do you have to destroy yourself like this? Remember the days when we stared at you with tears welling in our eyes asking you to not carry on that way. Do you remember what you promise us? You jolly well don't I guess because if you do, things will not end up the way it is..

You might want to say, its none of your business. Or mind your own business. If one day you really do say that, I will obliged to your wishes. It will just mean that the friendship we all had was just not meant to be. And all I would say is, 'I wish you all the best'

Yiwen

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Friday, June 09, 2006

Just send my jiex off to the airport for her flight to Shanghai. Had a dinner at Mong Heng which is one of my family's favourite dining place. Crap alot and had quite abit of fun. Jiex leaving for 2 1/2 years which is very long. With her going with only another girl, it makes mummy feel super worried. Seeing my mummy fac when we left the airport makes me feel sad. Like a super choking feeling like tears coming up. I wonder how i would handle it when I go to US for 4 1/2 months which is almost twice of jiex. I think I am starting to regret my choice... A note to Jiex: Do take care of yourself ok? Must becareful whereva u are. Becareful of colour wolves and robbers and conman. Miss ya lots...

Today went to do project with lum, wendy, jess and jon. After which we went to Parkway and saw this painting of sculptures and decided to go paint. It was super comical cause 5 old children like sitting down on short tables and chairs doing painting surrounded by kids. Doesn't it sounds wierd? haha.. Jess, Lum and wendy painted the girl while me and jonathan painted the boy wanx.. hahax.. I think the guy we painted look like a country pumpkin while the girl looks too modern. At the end they give the girl wan to me and boy wan to Jon as a memento when we go to US. Thanks alots.. hahax

Shall update photos another day..So Tired.. NItex...

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Thursday, June 08, 2006

Today went to do project at Lum house.. Had some group conflicts (not with lum) Hopes everything will be fine. Then after which went to get the letter from the US Embassy.. It was raining and super duper hard to catch a cab. So surrendered and walk to Paragon and queue for cab....

Did some rather eventful things.. Like killing snails to help my plant grow.. killed 4!!! Then found an ants nest and killed all the ants.. hahax.. and found the bitter gourd, pineapple my maid grew.. hahax....

Hopefully my photo could be loaded online...

1) The bittergourd my maid grew2) I bought the wan at the left

3) Thinking of whether to get this..

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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

My darling fen and rrina are off at New Zealand enjoying themselves with the cows while poor Yiwen is here sick with a cough and strain voice. Hope I get well before Friday because got an interview with Roland Restaurant manager. I guess its so highly unlikely.

When for driving lesson just now which suck to the max.. Stalled the car a gazillion times and the instructor looks so not pleased with me. Who can he blame for dragging a sick cat off her bed at 6.45 for a driving lesson at 7.30? Make no cow sense.. So its not my fault...

Went to get the earring stands from supplier bt was told that the pattern i wanted has gone out of stock. Like super sickening. So got another pattern for my customer. Hope she will no mind or I will have to take it back for an exchange.

Yesterday went to plan the questions for the interview with my grp mates. After which had subway which tasted good yest unsatisfactory because of the small size of the bread..muahaha... wateva.. Decided to get a bottle of wine for the manager of the restaurant for entertaining us. Went to watch Omen which was like 8 bucks luh.. Not fantastic but alright. But would not say its worth watching. Plot was logn and draggy. Kept yawning and almost fell aslp.. Only like had abit of emotion when the stupid nanny jump onto the daddy.

Am facing super mix emotions now. To go or not to go. Who can understand me? I wanna enjoy myself but the look of you would spoil wateva happy mood I have. I am moving on with my life now... Life do go on ritex?

And to the next person, if you read this blog, I don't know you well enough and do not want to. Am cold to you in msn not because of being cool towards guys. Just expressing no interest in you hoping that you will think that I am a super boring person. If you really is interested in me, then do me a favour and leave me alone... What you said really make no cow sense and is a joke I share with my friends. Like my smile is pretty? Get a life. That should not be a reason why you like someone. Go get yourself some other girl who smile prettily.. LOL...

Oh, I have once again regain my confidence in earrings.. Though stil look ugly with dangling earring, I am buying in advance because I have confidence in my hair le.. hahax.. So buying earring. A steering wheel wanx. Thinking of whether to get the fairy (silver pink) wanx.. aiyooooo....Speaking of which, Devil Beside You is not bad a show though do not like the ending... lalala...

Signing off,

Yiwen

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Sunday, June 04, 2006

Went for volleyball training on Saturday with liah, fen, rrina and drey. This is the first time I go to the new Pasir Ris Sec located at Bedok. I find it cool because the volleyball team have its personal training space, one indoor and one outdoor. But I find it not too good too because all the 4 divisions then would not be able to train together meaning lesser team spirit.

Continued with playing match by spliting into a mix team. Played matches like loser goes out. My team managed to continued playing without losing any game. Feeling was so shiok because very long nv play volleyball game already. The feeling of still being able to jump spike is so self satisfying. After training went to eat with fen then headed home...

At 7 met up with quant and kiku to go for the midnight sales at MArina Square. Did not buy anything though the rest bought quite a few things.

Woke up with muscle pain... yucks... Whole body so pain luh...

Merrina and Huifen, bon voyage alright... Have a nice time at New Zealand.. Take care!!

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Thursday, June 01, 2006

Today went Out with my Da jie to suntec... Main purpose was to go for the IT fair... but started off with eating at Marche... Been a long time since I went there.. Think i becoming Dinosaur le.. hahax.... BUt after that proceed to The IT fair to look for laptop and camera..... Went to super many place like ACER, Fujitsu, Samsung, LG etc etc.... But the deal that caught my eye was the samsung wanx.....

Then proceed to look for camera while waiting for my mother.... Saw this real nice camera too... When mummy came we went to buy the camera first with a free 1GB memory card and a tripod stand and a cleaner....

For Laptop we negotiate very long with the salesperson called Keith... He is a very patient guy I would say.. Ultimately he threw in a 3 in 1 scanner, photocopier and printer, Norton Antivirus, 1Gb ram(I think), follow my casing, mouse, speaker. So cool... hahax... only think lacking is the microsoft office... Think shall go ask from SP... LOL....

I love my laptop.. Shall take good care of it.. muahahahx...

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