Magical Essence

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Hmmmm.. I feeling of sadness for failing the stupid driving test is over. Then looking at the website of Comfort Driving Centre hoping that I would be lucky enough to be able to fish for a date before my exams and also before I go USA. Hopefully then I would be able to pass.

Friday marks the end of my last project which is CEM and I think we did pretty well despite some problems that arose. Chih Wee did advice me on a mistake that I made and I too did take note of that. Not to make such mistakes in future. Looking forward to what the other Jurong Bird Park group are cooking up. hehex.

Time truly passes super fast. Its only less than a month more before I head off to the US. EVerything seems to be in a total mess. Situation is so chaotic. Application of Visa, packing up of many many things. Applying this and that. Followed by the coming exams that needs 100% polishing. Lucky enough that my CA result for this semester ain't too bad. Was lucky enough to score kinda well for IAF despite the thought that I would fail.

I was pondering about how I would feel when heading to USA. I truly hope that my vball buds won't come and see me off. BEcause firstly, I really bu she de you all and secondly its too early for them to meet up with me. hahax... Xiang si ni men le.

AHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.... 为何会不极格呢? 我这个大笨蛋!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

好遗憾哦!!!

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Friday, July 28, 2006

Today ain't a good day for me. Went for driving practical test... Started off with warmup test which went perfectly. Then exam deduct so many marks... The below are all my mistake

1) Strike Kerb (10pts)
2) Move off in wrong gear (2pts)
3) Insufficient acceleration(4pts)
4) Fail to keep left, road hogging(6pts)
5) Veer off course(4pts)
6) Change lane abruptly(4pts)
7) Fail to take precaution against cyclist(8pts)
8) Not enought side clearance given to other road users(8pts)
9) Fail to use appropriate gear(4pts)
10) Improper turning, Incorrect Lane(4pts)
11) Incorrect Branking(2pts)

Break my instructor students record. The want that kena deduct the most points. 50 freaking points. *Faintx* Today still must go fish for early test date. *sigh*

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Went to do this personality test by chance. Then find it rather accurate.

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Monday, July 17, 2006

Alright, shall just blog alittle before going back to study for my IAF.. I think I was being very mean to mummy yesterday but that doesn't give her the right to beat me. Life is so unfair because she is always protecting my younger sisters. I would say she is overly protective toward them... It just isn't fair... I know I am 19 and shouldn't act so childishly. But when I am feeling tired and need some family support all she can do is just screaming at me... hello? Can I at least get some encouragement from you? I am starting to hate this place... I feel that its a good thing I would be leaving for US in around a month's time. Like this I can try to calm my very very overly wanting love heart. Maybe I can learn to be more independant that way. Its 5 months at USA..

Looking at the Singapore sky while the air forces flew their airplanes over, pass my house for their training for the coming National day, I was so overwhelmed with emotions. I love Singapore.. I really do love Singapore. Many Singaporeans just can't see how lucky they are to be able to live in such a peaceful little country. We are small but regconised and established. We don't suffer from famines or natural disasters. Whatelse can we ask for? I would like to thank everyone who shared the effort in making Singapore what it is today. Especially Mr Lee Kuan Yew.. I know many people don't like him but I really do love him!!!!hahax.. not that love love nor family love. I sure won't like the idea of not being able to watch TV everyday. This is childhood life. A way of relaxation.

Moving on to USA for this 5 months would simply means that I would be the minority of the country. I know I would be scorn at sometimes for being an Asian... But HEY!!! I am proud to be one. When people ask me, where I am from, I would proudly reply them... "I am from Singapore". And so I have decided that on my Disney nametag, I would put my country's name instead of my school name. Who cares which school I am from.

I sure will miss alot of people. I know its a little early to say this. But please bear with me becase I am feeling a little emotional today.

Aliah: My dear dear darling.... You make me feel so unwilling to leave for US.. You are always here for me. When I am upset, you use your trademark smile to cheer me up. When you are upset, you look up to me and ask for help. You seems so vulnerable at time that I just feeling like giving you a reassuring hug... That day you called and told me you got yourself a webcam so that you can see me through the net. You make me lost for words... In my whole life, the happiest thing would be knowing you.. Thanks darling...

Huifen: whaoooooooo!!! My dear neigbour..... I always look forward to your smses because it pushes me on to brave through my hard times. You always make me smile... my dear girl, you are really my sunshine.... You make me happy, when skies are grey. And yes we will stay family forever. Feel free to find me at your troubled times. I will be right here waiting of you.... Muacks!!!!

Merrina: Girl though know you for quite sometime but never really did get the chance to interact with you. I love your cool cool attitude with a tinge of craze. I think the time spend together during volleyball would be a unforgettable experience. Though a junior, I always admire the way you are able to do things so partially. And also to be able to set so well.... My dearest setter... heex

The baba family inclusive of Kiku: Ok I guess most fo you will not see this entry. STarting in year 2 I was rather reluctant to join the group because I think its just so wierd now at that time. But I really spend alot alot of happy times with you all. Project was something that I never had to worry when with you guys. Thanks for the laughter and joy we had...

Ok this is abit too over.. hahax.. Enough of all these....

Guan Yin Ma, please po pi me for my coming driving test soon soon li li.. hahahx....

Yiwen

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Friday, July 14, 2006

Its not easy to be strong, especially when one is at their darkest hours. Sometimes, one really just can't help thinking why things ended up the way it did. One just tend to shirk responsibility when somethings happen. Like saying, Its not my fault it happened. You shouldn't have placed your hopes so high in the first place.

When one fall out of love, many cry( thats normal), some commit suicide(stupid) while the rest just simply move on with life. But when something happen in a relationship, who should be responsible for it? Neverthless I really do admire those who just walk out of their darkness towards the well lit path waiting for you. Love is not everything. Don't fall in love because all your friends are doing so....

Never wallow in self pity because before you do, look around you and you will see many in a worse plight then you are. Once I always blamed god for being unfair. Why some gets what they want in life, while things turn out all wrong for some. But I realised that many always tend to look at others and think that what others have is the best yet neglect what they have with them. I have a full family, I am showered with love, I have a bunch of lovely friends & sistas...I am heading to Disney soon which would marks the start of another part of my life. What else can I ask for? Those that are still thinking life is treating you unfairly, wait because it means that the time is not ripe yet. Never be in a hurry because you will not be able to find what you have always been looking for.

I am not a very religious person. But I am a buddhist believer. I strongly believe that god will only help one who would help themselves. But I do not rely on god to make things work. Sometimes I do have doubt whether god really exist, but nevertheless, when I am feeling helpless, I like to know that up there someone do care about me. But that does not give one a reason to preach to me about their god and how that certain god will guide me. I only will believe in the one and only goddess.

If things do not work out well for you it just means you are not working hard enough or simply it is just not right for you.... Pursue your dreams just like I did mine....All the best...

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Monday, July 10, 2006

Jessica don't seems too good with maps.. haha

Someone's hoping for a baby!! haha

See!! lum and jessica are scared of birds.. LOL...

An ang moh took a photo for us.. He took a photo of us for himself too... haha

SEE!!! We ain't just playing.. we are seriously at work too...

- feel the magical essence...# ;

They were laughing away while I posed as the sad most dangerous creature

See!!! all of them are scared.. I am brave.. I walked the bridge twice.. Just look straight.. Not down or you start screaming

Peggy and Weiling's turn to pose.. haha.. Say cheese!!!

At the biggest man-made waterfall in the world.

The short and comfy panorail ride...

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Do not have any idea why my blog has a sudden influx of italians. But never mind, at least it means someone is reading my blog.. HAHA... My computer was down for 2 days and when I open my email.. GOODNESS.. 11 freaking emails...

Anyway went to Jurong Bird Park for CEM project yesterday... Some photos were taken.

Our brave Wendy feeding the birds. Ok not quite brave.. hahaWhere's Jessica?

The 4 brave ones... We were on a suspending bridge...

The extreme Bimbos.. With Brains...

Proudly displaying... The JURONG BIRD PARK MAP!!!!

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Thursday, July 06, 2006

Would we have started if not for that quarrel? *ponders*

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

Friends are people who accompany you in life. Friends share your sorrows when you are unhappy. Friends support you and let you know that someone do cares about you. Friends cry with you when you are upset. Friends reprimand you when you does something silly to your self. Friends are there to share your happiness. Friends joke with you and share many laughters with you. Friends window shop with you when you are broke. Friends stay up whole night to have heart to heart chat with you. Friends share things when needed.

I have enjoyed many of these. I have many friends in my life. People from all walks of life. People whom I look upon and some I strongly encourages. Once in my life, I feel that being able to have so many friends surrounding me is a great blessing. They share your pain and love you for who you are.

I have always count my blessing of making this lovely bunch of friends. I felt that being with them put me at ease. Its the time where I can enjoy wholeheartedly. I can share my sorrows and joy with them all. After each session, I often find myself filled with happiness. I am thankful for the love they showered me with. Thank you so much.

(I don't know how to continue anymore.. I am tired....)

- feel the magical essence...# ;

Saturday, July 01, 2006

One smile begins a friendship,
One mistake destroy it.

One game bond us all,
One night breaks us all.

A magical smile,
A faithful night.

A vulnerable friendship,
A sorrowful ending.

-Wen-

- feel the magical essence...# ;